Confessed? Confused

It was the day where we had Olympics opening ceremony in China, Beijing and it was 08.08.2008. 15mins to 7pm and I was in front of UM, just jammed jammed and jammed. I was listening to music via my hp and my heart was thinking, shld I send him a text msg, telling him that I have already gotten married in 2007? After some struggles, I decided to drop the text msg. But it was faith..I didnt manage to del the text msg, instead, I wrongly pressed sent.
He called me back and asked if it was true. He was buying food outside at that time and, he is now staying together with his gf..

I did pick the call though I was surprised that he will call me coz all this while he will normally text msg me. We chatted for bout 15mins and he said many many things and some what like he liked me once..that time, I havent got together with my current husband. But yet, he is having a gf and they have known each other for bout 22yrs! Loving couples..he is nice looking and smart and we have endless topics to chat about. But, he is 4 yrs younger than me and I could only like him, silently. Despite his gf, I just cant accept anyone who is younger than me, even a year..and he, is 4 yrs younger than me!

He called..and he mentioned that he liked me once. I asked few times to confirm..the feelings are just too strong fr my end and I dunno abt him coz when I asked him few times to confirm, he finally denied and said, you think it's so easy to like someone?

I was a bit sad. I told him, all a sudden, bonafidely fr the bottom of my heart that, I liked him at the time when we were close frens. He paused for a while and asked, if I liked him, why married my current husband? It was my turn, to pause.

I dunno what to say. he is 4 yrs younger than me and he has gf but there is a very speacial connection btw us..
I am confused..I dunno..I told him I have my own baby and he shld know as he is close to me..he was shocked and nvr believe me..then he recalled, it was the time when I was away for two mths and ok, I lied to him, saying that I will be away for a short term course. Am I bad?

The story..has it just begun? Was it ended? I am confused. I liked him..but what kind of feelings are those?